tired, aggravated, guilty

i know i havent really written in a while, and sry to anyoine that is keeping track. things are pretty well hectic in my life at this point. i have a beautiful 1 yr old daughter with my husband, and we are 5 months along in our pregnancy with our son. we are living with my sister and her 3 undisaplined children, and to make it more of an emotional rollercoaster, my dad and his new girlfriend are staying here with us for a week. i dont like his new fling, and i still say it is too soon after my mom for him to be so serious about anyone, but i guess it is his life, and his mistake. she has turned him into a totally different man, and in many ways not for the better. She is only like 25 years old against his 43, and although my mom was 10 yrs older then him, they fit togather better. this chick is just so...................i dont even know the words, and i like to think of myself as a fairly wellrounded, articulate female. i may only be 29 but i know 8 months is not a long enough mourning period to get over a marriage of almost 22 years. this woman doesnt work, and pretty much does nothing., they got here yesterday afternoon, and all she does is sleep. I mean i sleep alot aswell, the difference is i am 5 mionths pregnant, the mother of a very active 1 yr old, as well as a housewife, i clean and cook , and tend to my husband and his many needs, as well as helping my sister fight and tend to her 3 teenage children. im not saying i am better then her, i am saying that my father isnt the brightest bulb in the box, and he proved as much when he decided on this female to spend his time with. they have been togaether 8 months, the woman now shares,my mothers bed with him, not to mention her house. and all she does in return is cleanup alil bit. definitly not someone i would have chosen for my worst enemy, not to mention my father.I dont know, maybe im wrong, or maybe i just expected more intellect on my fathers part. but i definitly didnt expect him to get so involved with anyone less then a year after we pulled the plug on moms ventilator. he cries all the time for her, and he is always thinking of mommy and talking about her, and not often do you hear him say anything great abolut his new chick, other then she is a good girl, we eat out alot, but she is sweet. which means nothing too me. i dont care if she is a retired nun,. she shouldnt be in my mothers house, sharing my mothers bed, with my mothers husband.i dont know , maybe im just being petty, or 9childish, but i know for a fact from my fatehrs own mouth, this new girl, is not going to ever have the same kind of love he had/has for mom.............................................