so far so good. but yesterday was difficult. my youngest son has colic, so he cried most of the day. and the other two kids were wired for some reason, but it was alright. i put them in their play room, and took them outside. plus i had alot of help from my sister tara. so i managed. i also caught up all the laundry got almost all my chores done. this domestic life really isnt what i wanted to do with my life, but i really dont think i would change any of it for anything in the world.my husband. got temporary custody of his 16 yr old, which is fine, she helps me when i ask, but i cant wait for school to start. maybe then things will be a little easier for me during the day. sometimes i feel overwhelmed, but i remember that these are choices i have made, and thereby have to live with. things will get btter every day. this i know. ill write more tomorrow.

the begining of a whole new day

i promised someone very close to me once that i would try and update everyday about how things are going in my life. so im going to try very hard to do just that. so here goes nothing i h=guess.....
it is early morning right now, and all the kids are awake except my 6 week old son. the children are eating, and i stepped outside, and for some reason although it didnot rain last night there was a small rainbow outside. i couldnt help buit feel that it means things are going to get better now for everyone i love. i like to think it was a sign from my mom and my aunt millie letting me know to stay strong, and always follow "the straight and narrow path". im trying very hard to do just that. i love my life, although i miss my 4 children in florida very much, and if you read my previous blogs you know the situation there.my husband is getting ready to leave for work, and i will be home all day with the kids including his 16 yr old daughter.she is a sweet girl who grew up with her mom, in a home with no guidance. so it will take alot of work on me and robs part to try and turn her around. it seems like although everyday is a new struggle, everyday is also a chance at a new begining, and as the wind brushes my cheek, i feel more alive then i have in a while. my heart is lightened by the knowledge that my children are healthy and that im not alone in my struggle. robbie is a great support although i seem to find reasons to complain about him sometmes. he is a good guy, with a good heart, and a great head on his shoulders. things are looking up. and all i can really say at this point is thatnk god for all the joys and blessings in my life. and thank god im here another day to enjoy them. have a blessed day guys and gals and ill be back later or tomorrow. enjoy your day, and remember to hold those you love close to your heart even if they are miles away fm you right now.